Uhg! Bad idea! Though, I suppose it had to be done eventually. I had a whole section of relationship self-help books, couples romantic ideas, couples cooking, date your spouse, etc books. These were all added when Drew first told me he wanted to get a divorce, they were my way of seeing how things could be fixed...
Anyway...
I couldn't just delete the books, I mean they were really cool and I spent a lot of time researching to find the very best ones. So I added them to their own little list...for the future.
Which got me thinking about the future. Which in turn totally freaked me out. Thinking about putting myself out there, meeting new people, opening up to people, possibly being hurt again, possibly making more mistakes, possibly going through more sad endings...
Panic!
I've done a pretty good job of calming myself down again. Reminding myself that nothing needs to happen right now, or even for a while yet. Reminding myself that I thought I wouldn't find anyone after Steve, and Drew was way better than Steve! Reminding myself to just have faith, and things will be ok, I will be ok...and again...nothing needs to happen just yet.
To help me feel better mom is getting us some snacks ready, and beer, and we are going to watch Sex and the City (Santa got us the whole boxed set with both movies. What a swell guy!) So I am getting some wonderful heart-healing junk food, escapism, and girlie therapy. My mom is the best!
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